it never fails anymore. whenever i
tell someone something of personal
consequence i hear it back later from
someone else that was not there when
i said it the first time and i can't
come to terms with why this happens.
i wonder is it a matter of leverage.
can we only understand ourselves when
we compare our circumstances with
those of others? is my hurt deep or
just a flesh wound? It could be either
i guess, depends on how bad billy
got it. and there is no way out. you
can throw in your hat and proclaim to
the world that you should no longer be
a concern and in return you will not
propagate any story other than that of
your own. you can walk away and never
look back. But rest assured someone
will explain what you did and the other
will say, "well at least i ain't got it
that bad," or, "it was way overdue."
you can travel alone in freedom to the
end of the line in search of something
new where they will chomp at the bit to
know exactly where you came from and
who it was you knew.